You know that moment when your life changes? You feel a click or a tingle, like you’re headed in the right direction. This moment has only happened a few times in my life. Including the moment I found out I would be a mom and when I discovered my love for mathematics. Lately, a lot of things have clicked. I feel as though I am exactly where I am meant to be… even if it is this lost jungle that is my mid-twenties. This is the first time I have felt lost and at home simultaneously.
At this time in my life, I feel like I should have a plan. I feel like I should be more together, know where I am going, have more clear goals… However, all I can feel is that I am unmoored. I am veering away from my type A personality a little at a time, and it is terrifying. I feel all of the loose ends of my life unraveling.
Dramatic, I know, right? Who knew that the daily prompt today would depict my feelings so well. By the way, to define the word:
I have been anchored in my comfort zone for so long now. I have had the excuse of school and stress to not have to pay attention to my own well being. It is a strange feeling to know that now I need to take care of myself, and learn how to just be.
I need to embrace this terrifying, unmoored freedom with vigor. More than ever lately, I have been inspired. I think this is partially due to this new freedom I am feeling. I can picture myself happy with my life.
I am not there yet… but I can picture it. I can see a day where I am not rushing to do all of the things I need to do, and then napping because I am completely exhausted from the stress. I can imagine a world where I can handle anything that is thrown at me.
I am not ready to be as unmoored as I am, but I am learning to embrace the mess that is my life. I am still learning that it is perfectly okay to not be okay.
What are your thoughts on the Daily Prompt word? What makes you feel unmoored? Is it terrifying or freeing?